February 03

Finally Saying Goodbye to You

I know deep down you guys are gone,
Left me here alone in the dark,
You all left,
Everything around me is so cold,
Why did you do this to me?
Leave me alone in this cold world,
You were my best friend,
You’ve help me through a lot,
Now that you’re gone,
Who there for me,
When I cry, lash out in pain,
I can’t cry anymore,
It hurts too much to stay here,
You told me you’ll never leave me,
Guess what you have,
Cold, dark, scary new world out there,
For me to explore,
I’m too afraid to say anything,
I not ready to let this go,
I saw nothing, I heard nothing,

Until the phone rang,
My world went crashing down,
I never wanted to hear those words,
Casey he kills himself,
It’s not your fault
I blame myself because I wasn’t there,
When he need me,
I was wrap around with my problems,
I wanted to lash out,
I wanted to scream,
I couldn’t speak a word,
I sat silently staring out,
To nothing!

The world to me is so miserable,
Now that I can’t see your face,
Why does this always happen to me,
I never knew you would do that,
Kill yourself isn’t answer to anyone problems,
I wonder why you did it,
Why was I last one to know!

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December 30

My Dear friend, Young Dad

I tired to understand,

What you want me to be?

The girl who sweeps you off you feet,

The person who here for you,

When you get mad or sad,

I will always be here for you,

Now that we aren’t friend,

I pray to god to make everything would be okay for you,

Now you don’t want me in your life,

I will always be here when you need me,

A shoulder to cry on,

A friend who understand what you are going through,

I pray that you won’t do anything stupid,

You a lot going on,

You pushed me away like I meant nothing to you,

Which it hurts to see you in pain,

I look in your eyes and I see that you are hurting,

Why can’t you just tell me?

What have I done or what have I said to hurt you?

I will never understand,

Why you want to be dead?

You’ve got a wife and a child to look after,

Why do you want me to be in your arms?

I’m not going tear you family apart,

I won’t be that girl, who says she loves you,

You know that I don’t want you,

I saw you look at me,

Knowing my world is tore apart because of your words you said to me,

I told you over and over that I don’t love you.

Why can’t you accept it?

That we can’t be together!

I saw you today, with your baby,

You look like you were happy,

When you eyes turn toward me,

I saw the saddest,

I know you’re just a young boy,

You need to be a man,

Take responsibility for your baby,

Your girlfriend needs the help,

Please stay with her,

She needs you more than anything.

Take her every word and never let those words go,

She afraid as a baby

Never let her down,

That all she got is you and the baby,

I know what going on through mind,

Wonder if are love would have grown,

You have her and I have a boyfriend,

I let you go,

And now you should let me go,

Our love will never be,

So let me go,

That all I ask you,

You won’t and that tearing me apart.

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May 07

What's the Point

Whats the point now

When my dreams and my hopes been wash down the drain

I feel alone moreeach day

No one knows what going one

No one cares

Everything feels like shit

Not that I never felt this way a long time

And now it coming back in my mind

It hurts more now

I wish the nightmares go away

And everything be back when it used to be

That will never happen

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May 04

Forget Mr Average! You go for the artustic type

Forget Mr Average! You go for the artistic type!

Creative. Sensitive. A bit offbeat. Your type is the Artiste, a unique man who knows how to express himself in many ways, whether it's through words, music, or attire. You're attracted to his unconventional ways and his remarkable talents. He doesn't feel compelled to abide by society's norms. He believes that individuality is the key to happiness, and everything he does is a reflection of his "inner self". You fall head-over-heels for such confidence and style. Whether he's playing a song he wrote for just you or writing you a love letter, this man knows how to make you feel special. He's in touch with his feminine side and doesn't need to assert his masculinity to feel manly. If we were to paint a picture of your future, the Artiste would definitely be part of it!

O.K. Now you know your type.

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April 07

Letting go

You always said how much you loved me
And I was so stupid to believe in you
?Cos you broke my heart so many times
with all the pain that you put me through

Sometimes I would want you to be near
Those were the times you were never there
I never really expected too much from you
I just wanted a bit of tender love and care

I was told by so many of my friends
They had seen you with someone else
I thought they just wanted us apart
I told my self they probably jealous

Once you left me for another girl
She lured you in with all her charms
I waited for you to see the mistake
And I welcomed you back with open arms

I saw you flirting with one other girl
You dined that it could ever be true
I gave you the benefit of the doubt
Cos I was so tired of not trusting you

But one day you pushed the limits
When I saw you with my best friend
It was the day that I let go of you
The day I put this crap to an end

You told me how much you missed me
You said you realized you love me more
You said you only want to be with me
But I have herd all that bullshit before

You thought I could never let you go
But now you have no control over me
I?ve opened the lock around my heart
Let all my old feelings for you go free

The reason I kept going after you
Was cos you made me feel so alive
And with out you as my boyfriend
I never thought I could ever survive

Now I?m doing so well with out you
I am so glad that I chose not to stay
And now there?s sadness in your eyes
Because I was the one that got away

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No Tomorrow

Dreading tomorrow
And hoping this storm will pass through the night
When my mind's still awake
But my body sleeps tight
And I fear that this storm
Will bring floods and despair
Because I created this monster
That will destroy what was there
You will feel it inside
Because this storm is yours too
The storm's in us all
Built up from the pain we go through
But tonight, we will see
What we've done with our hate
When we realize its strength
We'll all know, it's too late
When the sun tries to shine
And all that remains is silence's hum
There'll be no hate
No death
No fear
With a tomorrow that will never come

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Wondering What's Real

Wonderinfg throughts that stay in my head

Hurtful lies that stay close to me

You stole everything for me

My heart

My money

My soul

Everything gone crazy when you come around

You tool my life in your hands

You hitme so may times

I stayed because I throught you love me

Loving you was a big joke

Our love is so depressing

Crazy lives we lived

What's real now

No mater what we did do

You were my bestfriend

My life is torn apart

Ater you choice her over me

You drove me away from you

I left as a ghost getting chase away

Knock on the dootr

Scared me like a worried mother

You tired and now its to late

I'm gone

Pills lay on the desk and alchor in her hands

Sucide note

I died for love

Her friends we left heartbroken

Missing her everyday

Blaming me for ur sis mistake isn't my fault

She the one left you to fight with ur real mom

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March 12

Cassie( My bf's song he wrote)

Cassie

Cassie I look into your eyes

All I see is the look love

Coming through those beautiful things

When were happoly together

With nothing to worry

Chorus

All I see is love between us

Forever an ever

With no worry

All I see is love

Your personality sparks a true genuine felling that I can't describe

It makes me feel so warm inside

That I can't leave you

No matter what the circumstance

ChorusX2

The hair on head flows like nice cool breeze

I can feel the sunshine coming through

As your beautiful hair glistens love

Between us that will never leave

Chorus

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February 26

I Don't Want To Miss A Thing

I Don't Want to Miss a Thing By: Areosmith

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure