I tired to understand,

What you want me to be?

The girl who sweeps you off you feet,

The person who here for you,

When you get mad or sad,

I will always be here for you,

Now that we aren’t friend, 

I pray to god to make everything would be okay for you,

Now you don’t want me in your life,

I will always be here when you need me,

A shoulder to cry on,

A friend who understand what you are going through,

I pray that you won’t do anything stupid,

You a lot going on,

You pushed me away like I meant nothing to you,

Which it hurts to see you in pain,

I look in your eyes and I see that you are hurting,

Why can’t you just tell me?

What have I done or what have I said to hurt you?

I will never understand,

Why you want to be dead?

You’ve got a wife and a child to look after,

Why do you want me to be in your arms?

I’m not going tear you family apart,

I won’t be that girl, who says she loves you,

You know that I don’t want you,

I saw you look at me,

Knowing my world is tore apart because of your words you said to me,

I told you over and over that I don’t love you.

Why can’t you accept it?

That we can’t be together!

I saw you today, with your baby,

You look like you were happy,

When you eyes turn toward me,

I saw the saddest,

I know you’re just a young boy,

You need to be a man,

Take responsibility for your baby,

Your girlfriend needs the help,

Please stay with her,

She needs you more than anything.

Take her every word and never let those words go,

She afraid as a baby

Never let her down,

That all she got is you and the baby,

I know what going on through mind,

Wonder if are love would have grown,

You have her and I have a boyfriend,

I let you go,

And now you should let me go,

Our love will never be,

So let me go,

That all I ask you,

You won’t and that tearing me apart.

 

You always said how much you loved me
And I was so stupid to believe in you
?Cos you broke my heart so many times
with all the pain that you put me through

Sometimes I would want you to be near
Those were the times you were never there
I never really expected too much from you
I just wanted a bit of tender love and care

I was told by so many of my friends
They had seen you with someone else
I thought they just wanted us apart
I told my self they probably jealous

Once you left me for another girl
She lured you in with all her charms
I waited for you to see the mistake
And I welcomed you back with open arms

I saw you flirting with one other girl
You dined that it could ever be true
I gave you the benefit of the doubt
Cos I was so tired of not trusting you

But one day you pushed the limits
When I saw you with my best friend
It was the day that I let go of you
The day I put this crap to an end

You told me how much you missed me
You said you realized you love me more
You said you only want to be with me
But I have herd all that bullshit before

You thought I could never let you go
But now you have no control over me
I?ve opened the lock around my heart
Let all my old feelings for you go free

The reason I kept going after you
Was cos you made me feel so alive
And with out you as my boyfriend
I never thought I could ever survive

Now I?m doing so well with out you
I am so glad that I chose not to stay
And now there?s sadness in your eyes
Because I was the one that got away

 

 

 

Sorry

 

Sorrry that things didn't go right

I didn't try to make you hurt

I'm sorry I broke it off

But deep down I knew it wasn't right

I saw you with your ex gf

What did you want me to think

So don't tell me it meant nothing to u

Don't tell me it was her fault

That she come on to you boo

No matter what you say I knew you love her still

So don't tell me you love

That's was all lies

If you love me you cheat on me

I saw it with my own eyes

You kissed her back

So how can you break my heart

And say you love me at the same time!

 

Jerk you think you right,

I was I never touch any other guy but you,

You know that,

You had ur asshole friends following me,

I knew there were behind me,

I knew it was right to break it off,

You cheated on me,

No more asshole lies,

I'm tired of you lies,

Stop calling me,

I know you love me!

 

 

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The hands tick so fast around her face

That time slips into days without a trace

I forget not the one who rules my dreams

The one I never left it seems

But he is not here in my far away mist

The dreams only reminders of my horrible twist

Pain belongs to my heart while away

It riddles me spun from night to day

Oh my love how I wish you so

To be with me so I can never let you go

The aches ride and ride through my head

Without you I am a body with no pulse, simply dead

The hands can not move fast enough for me

Faster, faster, your beautiful face I need to see

I will be home when the birds fly me there

And into your deep blue ocean eyes I will stare

Embrace you in a grip holding hug I shall

Finally, to be in the arms of my love and joy

 

Boy

 

Yeah we haven't talk in awhile

All I know I never stop loving you

My love for you was so strong

You got a gurl and a baby on the way

That hard for me

When we do talk you always saying your sorry

But sometimes that hard to believe

Every time I talk to you it hurts me so much

My heart skips a beat

You can't bring back the past

All you have to say I'm really sorry

How can you say that but you didn't think

All your words say that I'm too  good for you

I don't believe that

It would have been your fault if I dead that night

Your were too busy with your girlfriend

Too care about me

Now you want me to come see you in person

I know deep down I break down and cry

My heart can't take too much of this

When you talk to me I'm very weak

I blame you for me feeling this way

I let you in and you push me away

Like I meant nothing to you

But boy you never know ho much I loved you

I still do

You said that you love me

I know the reason why Amanda broke up with you

That one was my fault

And now you can't see your baby boy

Now I know you have a new baby on the way

I blame myself for you too to break up

I keep that to myself

You used to love that girl to dealth

My jealous got in the way

So here is my sorry to you

I know that I can't say it too

I'm scaried

 

This is for you Travis

 

I wake up each morning

Knowing that I don't have friends

My life is working my ass off the get grades

Deep down I'm stupid

All I want is to be accepted

I get it I'm a bitch

Its so hard to trust anyone now

I been back stab in the back alot

I tired of feeling this alonely

I know no one will care

My real bestfriend is my mom

She knows how I feel

I put on my mask to hide away the fear and pain

I guess have to deal with it

Atleast I don't pick up the knife anymore

I guess I one step ahead then I was before

I know the drinking is getting worse everyday

Hey I teenager we all do it

I guess I have to move on and let go

Its so hard

I kinda glad that I have my mom

I don't know if I can surview if she wasn't here for me

 

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One more day is torture

To see you live you life

And all you give the hate towards me

And make me feel a lot of your pain.

 

You were one of my bestfriend

But you're always acting mad towards me

How can I tell you the truth?

If your always making me feel so sad.

 

As I wrote my soul onto paper

If you only can change for me

I wondering if you can grow up

And truly be a man.

 

You told me you hate

Everything I did for you

But yet you just sit there

And act like a kid!

 

An angel told me

I should forgive and forget

But I don't really know how too

If I can even do that just a little bit!

 

If life is that easy

Maybe I don't know we'll see

How can our friendship go on if all you do is blame me?

For your mistakes!

 

I'm tired of getting hurt by you

But you'll never see what lies in my heart

That tells the truth

You treat me with all this shit.

 

And you what me to be your friends

You'll never be man enough 

You're always going be a kid at heart

I know you won't change for me!

You're a selfish pig

Who will never give me with respect?

Treat me like a dog

You aspect me to stay.

After all you did to me

Put me down

Tell me I'm stupid

No I'm not

You're dumb to lose a friend like me

Who stood by you through everything?

It's your lose!